Hi Joe, its good how you face the reality of what you did and how it affected your life. I see how we are all surrounded with so many temptations in this world that is seething with corruption and sin now that I’m older and wiser; because I once had a more nonchalant footloose fancy free outlook. That was because I did avoid substance abuse but knew and worked with quite a few individuals who were slipping down that slippery slope to catastrophe. One guy I worked with was getting so bad that one day during lunch hour I saw high take a handful of Perocet tabs and wash them down with a soda and he didn’t know I saw him do it until I brought it up, but, then he told me he’s fine, it just takes the edge off; because he has so much pain he has to in order to get through the day! The drug class name “Oxycodone/paracetamol.”
“Oxycodone/paracetamol, sold under the brand name Percocet among others, is a combination of the opioid oxycodone with paracetamol, used to treat moderate to severe pain. In 2019, it was the 59th most commonly prescribed medication in the United States, with more than 11 million prescriptions.” Wikipedia.
I really had no idea at that time how additive this drug was but learned over time how almost common place it was, and how so many people would slip into this status of being a user daily until some of them didn’t show up for work or even people I knew in passing through my work, would not be around and then I would find out like this one guy, that he had a heart-attack and didn’t make it. I really felt bad about that and had tried to understand what is wrong with this world and people that this shit happens so much; I had really tried to talk to that guy several times not sure what to say other than, hey man can you try really hard to stop this before something goes wrong, of course me at the time not having a clue how additive this habit and need was for him and others I ran into!
But back to my thought about temptation, I do know about that because if any of us are really honest with ourselves we have to face that truth that the imperfect broken, fallible human flesh condition leads to many possible cravings of one kind or another, which can even be food or sweets which has always been my weakness, wanting all kinds of candy or pasties way more than I should have. And it is a lucky break I guess that I still haven’t become diabetic, which might be due more to a high metabolism that just burned off the frequent consumption of the sugar highs I was giving myself or feeding my habit with. I know this doesn’t even begin to come close to serious drug addiction but it’s still a biochemical dependency process of altering brain chemicals as you know. But naturally releasing endorphins does help reduce pain or increase pleasure to improve one’s overall sense of well-being without the unwanted often very dangerous side effects that go along with drug and alcohol use and abuse.
These chemicals produced by the hypothalamus and pituitary gland in response to pain or stress do have a beneficial effect at times being in this group of peptide hormones which both relieve pain and create a general feeling of well-being or even euphoria. I did have a very high revving endocrine system at one point with an over active thyroid gland and the other related glands did seem to follow in suit if you will, to seek some equilibrium, but it got to a point just by my own bodies over activity that it damn near killed me with a potential cardiac arrest as my body was way over metabolized. So I mention this to point out that not even taking drugs, one could potentially experience a similar imbalance and its devastating effect! I had to be hospitalized and treated long term with medication rather than surgery to bring things down into an even keel or alignment.
So my main point is that we humans are so far from any perfection and are living on borrowed time with one thing or another that will do us in eventually but the tightrope we walk, as we go through life is way more precarious if we give into an easy cure-all or fix to deal with pain or depression, and as I see things as good and evil in this world I don’t have any doubt that temptation is the main stumbling block in our way to staying healthy mentally, physically and most importantly spiritually! So we have our work cut out for us from the time we are able to use our free will and do what we please, and as my dad and other good mentors advised me from a young age, that it is best to have good solid routines and habits that keep us busy and out of trouble (temptations) while we build our faith in God, making sure to “let our conscience be out guide!” That works great, until we allow temptation or problems to build up which then makes it too easy to give in to some temptations and get on that slippery slope.
I think for me those good lessons from people I looked up to and my own health crisis at an early age made me appreciate very much how blessed I was to be healthy and able to live a decent life so I buckled down; but, still I found a way to give into temptation and appease the flesh in the wrong way by getting those sugar rushes and giving into cravings which is an addition or vicious circle. I guess all I can say is it sucks, but, we do have to “fight hard to stay strong and optimistic” that we can beat the flesh and earthly desires or at least try our best to overcome and be as healthy as possible. Amen.
God bless you and yours.
Bother in Christ Jesus,
Lawrence Morra III
At this very moment, all across the globe, men and women are walking out on their families for drugs and alcohol. Mothers and fathers have been abandoning their kids for dope since the beginning of dope. Dopes on dope leaving to score dope from dopes. I used to be that foolish dope.
It’s been a long day, and I’ve been home from work just long enough to shower, change clothes, feed the dogs, and do some online bill paying. Like most days, I’m in an incredible amount of pain.
I have a history of pain, pain pills, and addiction to pain pills. As a recovering addict, narcotics are permanently off the table. My addiction is the first thing discussed when I meet a new doctor or dentist. I can remember when drugs were the only reason I’d visit a doctor’s office or emergency room. So much has changed since I…
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