Hidden Suffering and Deep Pain

“if only it could have been like her work with Harrison a positive outcome many years ago back then”

Anne Heche declared ‘brain dead’ at 53: ‘She will be remembered for her courageous honesty’

Nancy commented below to which I had to respond with the following.

“How sad that her life was so tangled with things she obviously couldn’t handle. Instead of judging and opinions, we should all be praying for her soul and the comfort of her family.”

Yes, it’s not accomplishments or fame at all, it’s all about our immortal souls being judged worthy to be at eternal peace in heaven! That is what we should pray for her and anyone regardless if they were screwed up or not; we need to ask God for His mercy, because only God knows what each of us is really all about! Amen.

Think about it.

“9For I am the least of the apostles and am unworthy to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God. 10But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace to me was not in vain. No, I worked harder than all of them— yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me. 11Whether, then, it was I or they, this is what we preach, and this is what you believed.” 1 Corinthians 15:9-11

I worked on a Harrison Ford film so got to talk with him and I really like the man as well as respect his work and views in general. He and Anne were paired well in the Six Days Seven Nights, the 1998 action comedy.

To me it’s sad that most of this pain and mental anguish was very hidden and “if only it could have been like her work with Harrison a positive outcome many years ago back then;” so that perhaps this tragedy would have been avoided.


It saddens me to see such opportunity and talent lost this way no matter who it is; but she was a hurting soul and I send my prayers to her and her family!

God bless.

“The most frustrating thing I learned in my journey is that you cannot teach people to love,” Heche wrote in her memoir. “To love another, you must love yourself, and that is a furious battle that cannot be won until we all agree that we’ve lost it already.”

Following excerpts from the original article on AOL

She explained in her 2001 memoir, Call Me Crazy, that, while some people thought she had gone insane, the truth was that she believed she “went through a period of my life that was insane, and it lasted 31 years.” Heche, 31 at the time, wrote that she’d suffered trauma after having been being raped by her father throughout her childhood. (Her mother and sister refuted her story.)

Heche, who was born in Ohio to a family that frequently moved, said that she worried that her father — who died when she was 13, after allegedly contracting AIDS through unprotected sex with other men outside his marriage — had given the disease to her. So she rebelled.

“I drank. I smoked. I did drugs,” Heche told ABC News in 2001. “I had sex with people. I did anything I could to get the shame out of my life.”

Heche told Larry King the same month that she had long felt schizophrenic, but she only talked about it over years of therapy.

“I was a perfect hider. I was raised to hide. I was raised to pretend. I was raised to always tell everybody that everything was fine, and even though I was in therapy for years I never told anybody that I had another personality,” Heche said. “I never told anybody that I heard voices and spoke to God. I never told anybody any of it.”


Anne heche pose

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Exclusive: Anne Heche Interview

By ABC News

Sept. 4, 2001 — Anne Heche says the sexual molestation she suffered at the hands of her father caused her to escape into a “fourth dimension” fantasy world in which she believed she was from another planet.

“I’m not crazy,” Heche tells 20/20 on Wednesday in an exclusive interview with Barbara Walters. “But it’s a crazy life. I was raised in a crazy family and it took 31 years to get the crazy out of me.”

Heche, promoting her new book, Call Me Crazy (Simon & Schuster), says she’s had a lifelong battle with mental illness.

“I had a fantasy world that I escaped to. I called my other personality Celestia,” she explains. “I believed I was from that world. I believed I was from another planet. I think I was insane.”

Her Father’s Secret Sex Life

Heche traces her problems back to her father. Donald Heche, a choir director in a Baptist church, began sexually abusing his daughter when she was still a toddler, she says.

“He raped me … he fondled me, he put me on all fours, and had sex with me,” says Heche, qualifying that the abuse is only “in my memory.”

“I think it’s always hard for children to talk about abuse because it is only memory. I didn’t carry around a tape recorder … I didn’t chisel anything in stone … Anybody can look and say, ‘Well how do you know for sure?’ And that’s one of the most painful things about it. You don’t.”

She says she contracted herpes from him. “I had a rash, I had sores, I had welts on my nose and on my lips,” she says.

Her Family’s Reaction

Responding to her daughter’s accusations, Nancy Heche posted the following on a Web site called Previewport.com: “I am trying to find a place for myself in this writing, a place where I as Anne’s mother do not feel violated or scandalized. I find no place among the lies and blasphemies in the pages of this book.”

Heche’s sister, Abigail, wrote: “It is my opinion that my sister Anne truly believes, at this moment, what she has asserted about our father’s past behavior; however, at the same time, I would like to point out that Anne, in the past, has expressed doubts herself about the accuracy of such memories. Based on my experience and her own expressed doubts, I believe that her memories regarding our father are untrue. And I can state emphatically, regardless of Anne’s beliefs, that the assertion that our mother knew about such behavior is absolutely false.

Sex, Drugs and Acting

Heche did not learn that her father also had homosexual encounters until 1983, when he was dying of AIDS. When she learned he had the disease, she feared for her own life, she says.

To get away, Heche says, “I drank. I smoked. I did drugs. I had sex with people. I did anything I could to get the shame out of my life.”

Heche also began acting, playing twins on the soap opera Another World from 1988 to 1992.

By the time she was 25, Heche says her personality had begun to fragment, shattering into moments of madness. Celestia, her other personality whom she believed was a reincarnation of God, spoke a different language and had special powers.

“You name it, I could do it. I could see into the future. I could heal people,” Heche says. “I don’t know where it came from. I was, in my mind, learning it from God.”

Heche says she wrote Call Me Crazy to say goodbye “once and for all, to my story of shame and embrace my life choice of love.”

“The fact that there are people hearing my story is the icing on the most beautiful cake in the world, that I imagine says, ‘Happy freedom, Anne. You have made it to the other side.'”

Full article at this link.

Lawrence Morra III

With the prayer this song of hope to her and her family.

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