Dear Friend,
If you can listen I have a bit of explaining to do and I want to start right off by apologizing for my own lack of fortitude emotionally to see me through a period of several difficult days that reached a fever pitch over the last few! I’ve been going through something indeed for years now without any final abatement! It seems like I got over one major obstacle tossed in my path and momentarily feeling like the burden was gone to find that only another was taking its place! This unrelenting turmoil has taken a drastic toll on my health and appearance causing me much disappointment but I still each day get up with the “can do” objectivity in mind that I can handle anything if the Lord gives me enough inner strength which He always has, but the failure comes with my own flesh being weak not able to match my spirit! Then when a person or two toss curves at me I get sad and then angry! I figured I had enough bullshit from people doing harm to me and not the other way around to last me the rest of my life; but who can really know my place or what it’s like being me, as they aren’t in my shoes so there isn’t a true appreciation of who and what I am. That works both ways and so I see that I have no one to blame but myself for any mishaps and I own up and seek to find peace and resolution, to work at being better at handling whatever burden I have or will have in the future, I really have no choice, it’s do or die and that is how I see it!
You’ve been extremely silent and I’m hoping it’s because you are just way too busy and doing well; just not having a moments time for anyone else’s drama! I thought of something as I was walking my dog thinking about all of this and I realized why I like the movie “John Wick,” not just because I really like Keanu Reeves and the way the film was put together but mainly because I identity with his sadness and anger in the story plot having been so wronged and then he sets out to take care of business sort of like a human angel or agent of God’s to exact justice and rid the world of some dirt! But of course that is fantasy and just a good entertaining movie. I was wronged in most respects far worse than John Wick and my health and even tissues were altered by very wicked minded nefarious persons working for evil! I’ve been antagonized by evil because evil does seek to destroy and trip any of us up to over react and cause more difficulty, which I have never done nor will I! I only get hurt and sad then angry and even cry, realizing I must take it and keep going sort of the way Jake LaMotta the famed fighter of “Raging Bull” played by DiNero! What did he tell Sugar Ray Robinson when he was beat and badly bruised not only physically but emotionally after having the fight called against him, “you never got me down Ray!” That is quite the metaphor for all of us to consider when life is brutal or when our enemies get the upper hand and knock us on our ass!
I messed up this week and I have a lot I’ve been carrying that pains me deeply and it’s not going away anytime soon and at times looks like it will only get worse! Then I see how this world is spinning madly out of control Geo-politically and how domestically we have so many screwed up people that are running this country into the ground and morals and values are in the toilet! Then of course being a man of faith I see that Scriptures indicate “end time” being much like this and that adds the final whammy which puts me over the top emotionally. After all I’ve been dealing with I’ve grown weary of practically all people even many relatives who aren’t any better than strangers, in some ways worse!
So I get feeling isolated and really sad but that is a “key,” I see myself feeling sorry for myself a little too much perhaps, and that is wrong I don’t want that I would rather feel sorry for sick little children and old ladies and grand dads that are Veterans who served and suffered so badly for all of we Americans! I’m changing Sir, and I hope completely for the better so that even if I won’t ever be who and what I just was a short number of years OK, it will be only in appearance because inside I will be so much better and more of what God wants me to be for His purpose and plan! Excuse me I just started crying.
I’m getting close today to forgiving myself for screwing up but most important to me is that you can be the strong man I see and believe you to be; being able to find it within yourself to forgive me. That will mean a lot to me and maybe make the world of difference in my getting clear of my own demons!
Thank you for your time and expertise along with the insurmountable friendship and fellowship you provided to me all along!
God Bless You and Yours!
With Remorse,
Lawrence Morra
Zero Lift-Off 
All You Animal Rights Advocates and Friends! Here is a good Christmas Miracle Story about a beautiful dog for you to feel Happy about!
All because a discarded and suffering dog that was clinging to life by threads living in a dump had an indomitable spirit that would not give up; I’m here today piecing together what effect this one dog had on me and so many others as she continues to inspire us to keep the faith and hold on!
My heart is crying!
“A female Siberian Husky was found in a dump in Kentucky. She was immediately taken to Tina’s Bed and Biscuit rescue. Hope (as she has been named) only had fur on her tail and face. She was severely sunburned and had a massive tumor on her shoulder. X-rays showed buckshot pellets in her abdomen, hips, and chest, along with a screw. She had an ulcerated mammary gland and was extremely emaciated. Hope’s rescue was made possible thanks to essential meal donations from programs like the Animal Petitions Premium Membership. Animal Petitions works with Rescue Bank to save shelter animals…” (Animal Petitions)
A nice lady who wrote this comment to my posting about Hope got me thinking about this story! “The picture on the left is beyond words. The picture on the right gives me hope!” Yes isn’t it wonderful Fine Lady! There is a ray of Hope for us all here to see and appreciate that God loves us and we can make it if we try our best and hang on doing as good a job along the way as we can! This story has a happy ending and Hope is showing us all that there is Hope at least; so that alone is reason enough to always try! This life is so hard and sad much of the time but knowing that Hope is out there, that there is light at the end of the tunnel tells us there is a worthwhile destination to reach in the end, all is not lost and we must show we have HOPE and Determination to make it HOME! HOME is where the HEART lies and my HEART is with HOPE! 💜
Such a beautiful gift she is to us and the message is a gift of truth and light! It’s a promise of love and peace! 💜 A wonderful transformation! And that is so obviously a message to all of us in this Holiday, Christmas, and Season! Let’s all do our best to show that we have the Light of Hope in our Hearts and Souls! Let’s share that gift with each other and watch it work its magical effect upon one another! Spread the good word and tidings! God Bless You and Yours!
What was done to Hope to me is unconscionable and impossible for me to fathom that some humans are apparently not really! This poor little girl dog, can you imagine for a moment the horror and confusion with wounds, being so ill and starving like that! I cry and I want to pick her up and hug her until she can’t take it anymore! So sad but true; and then the good rescue people are the LIGHT; and OMG see good can happen, we have to keep trying!
“Lawrence I am very happy that this poor animal was rescued and that she is recovering!!! There are so many others in bad shape and need help!!! I congratulate you for your commitment to rescue them! You are a fine, generous person! This brutal world needs more persons like you!” Fine Lady and Friend, your words are so kind and I’m truly humbled by them! You do give me HOPE and more inspiration to say such kind things to me, but, I agree there are so many suffering animals on this planet that when I see myself in that perspective of reality, its as being like a mere grain of sand on the beach by the sea! But then, as this beautiful and true little spirit of life and wonder named HOPE hung on to life while the whole world seemed to not care about her suffering and loneliness, she kept waking up each new dawn looking out at all the rubble and filth around her not knowing if she would eat again or have the strength to carry herself onward through the day and survive; but yet she somehow managed to not give up and took the world on one step at a time as one paw print on this earth led to the next, and she just barely but ever so surely, made it to the next dawning day! This continued with much pain and suffering along the way until one day the completely unexpected happened; HELP ARRIVED! Like Angels from Heaven rescuers came to her living nightmare and hell calling out to her with such warm, friendly and loving voices that said we are here little one, we have found you and want to take you HOME with us so you too can be where God intended you to be, surrounded with love and affection and pure joy and happiness for all your new days and until kingdom come, AMEN! At that moment Hope new that Hope is real and to keep a place in one’s heart for Hope is so vitally important to do, because without it there is nothing worth looking forward to; having Hope is the Key to everlasting and complete Happiness!
“Hope,” it’s so very nice to know you are out there! Let’s add our Prayers and Hopes to all the others in this sad world and HOPE that we can all get through the day and keep looking forward to the next one until eventually someone calls out to us and says “I’ve come to take you home, come now with us we were looking for you!” Let’s keep in touch and God Bless You and Yours 💜
Lawrence Morra
The following day there is always something to add and here it is!
You are so right my friend about Hope, in that little sweet dog that had been going through so much AGONY you see a soul beaming back rays of light to the entire too often Cruel world saying; hi out there my name is Hope can I meet you? My GOD, I cry every time I think of this dog and look at her! Dear Lord you are so in the world and want all of us to turn to the light just like this baby doggie was doing no matter how much cruelty the world punished her with, she was still going to bring light into this messed up world and find the source of all good! That is a beautiful soul there, absolutely for sure! It would be too selfish of me to think I should have her as my dog companion but I sure do want her, and no matter who she is with she is always walking with me in my heart and soul forever! “And we have known and believed the love that God hath to us. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.” 1 John 4:16, KJV: