Mirror That Kind of Giving That Jesus Christ Gave to Us

My thoughts to share with a Blogger, a Commenter and all of You!

Thank you Blogger, very interesting and timely piece you wrote here in my eyes.  I want to speak to you in particular commenters especially the one who saw the Bloggers story in a negative way, and to all others who care to listen to my perspective.

You’re dead wrong and trying to soft sell Abortion and that the Left has no agenda which they most assuredly do, which is to promote radical and liberal things and squelch conservative traditional values and living.  In many cases so they can be victorious in telling the world that they can do as they please even if it doesn’t fit into the conformity of thousands of years of civilized behavior or modus operandi and accepted culture that is not only based on religious context but on common sense in your face reality!  This is something the fallen angels did when they transgressed God putting them above God!  All this gender bending and saying be what you want to be is straight from hell and most sane truly honest people know that.  You are born male or female and that is it, and sure there are rare aberrations but that is an extreme minuscule number of humans out of the billions that have walked this planet.  The radical left would want the status-quo to be the minuscule minority that should be leading the way for all human standards and behavior or a justification to bend reality and say that it is fine to change what sex you are!  Poppycock and stupidity have been allowed to take the driver’s seat because of very wrong and bad court decisions having been made over the years and a cultural shift was allowed to exacerbate becoming what we have now a diametrically opposed confrontation in world populations that’s grown into a feud of unrelenting attacks upon each other or the opposition!  This should never have been allowed to happen but it did and I say because too many humans have put themselves above God and what life is and should be; “radical thinking gone amuck and out of control,” just what the evil one wants us to be doing, killing innocent babies and wanting to do the same to each other.

Infamous abortion doctor Kermit Gosnell had no problem with abortion just like Joe Biden a professed Catholic said he has no problem with same sex marriage during Obama’s 2nd Presidential campaign!  Many of Gosnell’s patients were “given anesthesia by untrained assistants; patient’s died on the operating table from an anesthesia overdose; abortions were performed on babies older than 24 weeks; and some babies were delivered alive, after which Dr. Gosnell cut their spinal cord with scissors.”
This by a doctor who did take an oath to “do no harm” obviously did every day and each time he terminated a pregnancy and that is the “heart of the matter” when life is life, and who if anyone can take a life and for what reason.  In war we must do or die its kill or be killed and sadly the human race hasn’t found a way to prevent such war killing or major out of control disputes with each other!  Now we have this “abortion war” that was allowed to grow to a point of having a global impact creating industrialized wholesale abortion, most of which would not be happening if humans found a way and inner strength to behave in a proper responsible manner; to leave sexual relations to a devout love relationship and procreation between couples in order to produce a family and wanting to have a child together.  In other words living morally, not like pigs or self-indulgent lustful flesh beings which pop culture and the like are promoting!

Similarly, we might say that priests are working directly for God Almighty and take vows of obedience to Him and when ordained as a priest they must stay above sin or reproach which is a tall order and big boots to fill!  This Blogger is seeing that objective clearly and understands the great commitment these men have made and how much they have to love God our Creator to do such a thing, and they surely deserve respect and appreciation for doing so, just like any great doctor who fulfills his duty to “do no harm” and works every day to save life, any life, even that of a criminal shot in a gang war or any other man-made sinful behavior!  We are all wreaking with sin inherently just by virtue of being human and imperfect beings at this stage of existence!  God promised there is much more to come beyond this life and will give us that gift of Eternal Life if we will follow some simple requests of Him!  Of course some will fail big time in this life and that is sad, and even priests fail at times or ministers, soccer coaches and gymnastic teachers or those failed individuals in any other group where there is always going to be opportunity for sin and failing to enter the equation.  Instead of all people now recognizing the fact that we are in such an important battle of Good vs. Evil and calming the turmoil while we peacefully face the facts and reality as to what has gone wrong and what is continuing to run us off the precipice; we instead as an imperfect planet of humans seem to be more interested in perpetuating the clamor and fight to win out or beat the opposition, over really fixing and curing disease that riddles us.

The Blogger graciously pointed out a great good that took place, a pure example of humility and love that Jesus Christ expressed to all of us and how that is what all of us should strive to do each and every day, the “oath of the living” should always be to do that, and we’re obligated to try OUR BEST; if we fail, God will understand but we MUST try our best, not be fakers and liars!  That is called true FORGIVENESS!  We must all forgive each other and show that we will try our best to do that in all situations, but that is another tall order, nonetheless we must try; or will we be deserving and given forgiveness when it will really count standing before our maker?  No; we will not and God has made that clear through His example as Jesus Christ who took all the sins and filth of this world that any and all humans have or will commit and took that unbelievable burden upon his own spirit to suffer its “full consequence,” an act mind you that obviously only God could perform; and all because He loves us more than we can imagine; allowing us all an opportunity to be FORGIVEN outright for any sin, and enter the Kingdom of God as pristine as the driven snow, His Heavenly Paradise for Eternity if we will hold up our end of this most precious “Everlasting Covenant “with Humanity!  We must try very hard and with his grace and Holy Spirit the Comforter that we can depend on, this burden and difficult task can be made easier to carry as our own personal cross in our personal relationship with Him; but we must carry that cross or we will never succeed.

I hope anyone reading my words will be inspired by God as I am to find Him in their hearts and act upon His will to do the right thing, be strong in his overpowering Love for you and submit to Him, He will never let you down!  I did go to the Ascension Mass last night and when I got home I found the email notice about this Blogger’s new Blog Post and I was drawn to the fact that she does the Rosary which is a practice I wrote about recently for Easter and also that her rosary is made with wooden beads.  I have the same type of rosary which I wore around my neck last night in Mass, and this rosary was given to me by a special good servant woman of God, who was in a hermitage for many years serving God there while of course helping the nuns. She had thought of becoming a nun herself but eventually her path was shown to her and it was to do as she did.  She got this rosary at Medugorje which was blessed with Holy water there.  She had gone there for a healing and when she got back home her illness got worse in time.  She remained faithful and continued doing her rosary each day then when rushed to the hospital she had her rosary with her and died on the operating table.  But she was revived and was shortly after cured miraculously.  Around this time I had just been through a horrible industrial chemical inhalation injury and was trying to deal with the difficulties of fighting the damage and illness that was caused by that injury, along with having to finally fire my lawyer and take charge of my own workers compensation case in the court system.  I used to see this lady in church many times and one Sunday she had told me all about her history with the nuns and then her illness.  It turned out that I too had the same endocrine illness when I was very young and was eventually cured not by doctors but by God I believe, because just as mysteriously did I too become afflicted with this disease I got well again just as mysteriously, because I believe that I was tested and God wanted me to move on from that difficulty to the many more that were coming my way up the road; and all to serve Him and His will for me just like all of you should. Again, on another Sunday I was in church and this nice lady came over to me after the mass and said, “here this is for you my dear friend,” and placed her “precious rosary in my hands.” I’m crying now telling you all this, because I try to keep most of my problems and pains to myself, but this was one issue where I felt I need to forget myself and give it all to the Glory of God and thus to all of you out there to hopefully make a difference for any of you who will see the light of God and follow Him.  I do it out of love for God; I want no pat on the back, nothing.

Understand please; it takes a lot to open up to virtual strangers for me about such personal things that are so deep in my heart and soul.  That was the rosary I had with me in mass last evening, and I had it with me in court over an extended period while I fought my way through the legal system Pro Se, where eventually the judge at the closure of my case said I did as good a job if not better than any attorney could have.  See with God you are going to make it; as He gives to us we must “mirror that kind of giving,” because, “that is the point this Blogger made here;” you have to understand and don’t be self-centered or weak in your sight.

Look beyond yourself, far beyond; to where God has prepared a most unbelievable place for you to be with Him and all that is good forever. Amen
Lawrence Morra

See the Light

learn to adapt

Everyone is different and we of course have many similarities in that we are all human beings but also many acute differences making us individuals. This world and we who inhabit it were not meant to be perfect or live in such a tumultuous plane of existence in blissful harmony!  You mention adversity and to me that is the key to our being here, to meet any and all challenges with tenacity and determination to see what we can do with what is before us, to never quit or give into the great lack or imperfections that infect this world. Many unfortunately it appears give into circumstance or that lack of this or that while others say no way I won’t accept this and fight to change whatever they can or at least in the process themselves, hopefully for the better!

My wonderful father told me something once when I was a very young teen, he said, “Lawrence my son in this world a person has to come to realize that it comes down to adaptability!” He added, “That you have to learn to adapt to whatever comes your way in life and accept and make the best of things, because you’re not going to change the world.” Very wise I realized in time that my father had this objective wisdom that he imparted to me, as I would later recognize we are all “individual works of ART” and no telling what each will be in the final analysis, or until the fat lady sings!  Each of us have multitudes of decisions or moments in the finite plane of material living and each one alters the path we are on whether ever so slightly or dramatically; each one leads to the remaining moments of the rest of our lives and no telling how it will all sift out!   I could have been a shit heel almost all the way to the finish line cheating others and more importantly cheating myself, but perhaps before it’s over see “the light” that God has put in this world for all to realize which is of a Divine nature and infinitely wiser than any of the wisest among us; telling me that this must be the ticket, to be “divinely inspired” is a sure bet to accomplishing our own “individual mission” which is all in the “hands of God ,” not us or any conceptualization one can ponder, let go and with “humility” say I’m yours Lord to mold and shape as “You will.”

Just like the criminal on the right side of Jesus at Calvary being crucified for his crimes he saw the light before it was too late and the other criminal to His left denied the LIGHT causing his eyes to be plucked out!

We have FREE WILL to change Course and Consequence every single second of our lives!  Plenty of opportunity to answer God; before He either embraces us or let’s go!

It’s not about formulas, programs or cookie cutter patterns to follow for success.

“God grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change…the Courage to change the things I can…and the Wisdom to know the difference.”

Lawrence Morra

What Have They Done To Our Country?

 

Good Morning On Good Friday!!!  God Bless You and Yours!  I was telling myself yesterday that I will not be alarmed or aggravated by the Evil Dem party especially during this Holiest of Weeks for Christians!  But, I ask God to forgive me because I have to speak up at least verbalize or write out my shock and dismay over what still continues!

I can’t believe how the mainstream media is trying to put spin on the Mueller Report which clearly states there was NO RUSSIAN COLLUSION between the Trump Campaign and Russian to Influence the election and instead they coddle the wicked evil Dem party by not going after Schiff and others for making up lies to start the whole special counsel investigation in the first place as a witch hunt; because they would not accept Trump as President!  And WHY, because they thought they had rigged the system well enough to make sure Evil Hillary was elected and they could continue the “Obama Scam” and ruin of America!  Now they try to pick bones about how the President was reacting poorly to the investigation in order to try and derail it; and was obstructing!  These sick bitches and bastards are not American; they’re NWO sick freaks!  This is a F-ing 3 ring circus what the media and Dems are doing to this country’s well-being as a whole!

They are all like mutinous out of control lunatics!  The evil Far Left Libs are ruining America!  I hope we can stay cool calm and collected this weekend; it is such a beautiful observance of our God’s plan to bring salvation to mankind and yet not enough people respect that and would rather keep stirring up trouble and lies.  Such an out of control mess!

God Bless You and Yours!

Lawrence Morra

 

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Let’s Dispel the Seeds of Doubt

I’m very sad that you suffered my friend along with your family and believe your Dad suffered through all that turmoil and dishing out his abuse which was from a tormented soul.  I do know there is God, and justice will always prevail, even though we don’t always see it or get the picture right away it is all going to come out that good overcame evil, light overcame the darkness!  What you went through was absolutely horrible and heartbreaking to me, I even cry thinking of the little girl being subjected to all of that when by right she should have been caressed with gentle and comforting, nurturing love and affection by all those around her that were and are her family!

Now look, you made it through all of it and on this side of that earthly hellish nightmare you do good things and taught your kids to do the same which it sounds like they get it and live as peacefully and proper as they should and can, which is a credit to your determination not to do harm and be a horrid parent like your dad was!  Don’t be sad or angry when I say this, but I even feel pity on your dad and see so much waste and loss by his being consumed by the alcohol and devils that go along with it.  Scripture as you know addresses remaining sober at all times, and says we should not to fall into drunkenness; and why is that do you think?  Because then one opens them self up to all manner of corruption and yes evil!  As I told you I actually put out an effort to have my former cousin in-law much the kind of person your dad was, thought of in special prayers by a highly devout group of Christian Brothers of the Catholic Church which along with my own thoughts and prayers is my sincere hope that he won’t be damned to hell which is permanent as you know once God judges a soul!

I believe in hope and that is why I see it the way I do even for my cousin in-law who like you got me so angry at times I felt he would be better off dead but that was not up to me even though I asked God to take him as I’m sure my cousin did at times and you and your mom did your dad!  That HOPE thing is important to hold dear in the heart, because it has much to do with what we are here for and goes to the question you ask as to why God would let this suffering of yours go on like it did!  I’m sure you agree we are learning from all of this good, bad and ugly by means of FREE WILL.  If God steps in and stops this or that in the billions of lives on earth then He is a Master Puppeteer and this is all some theater type shows for his amusements, do you get that?  God is the greatest LOVE and we are minute peons in comparison to the actual LOVE He has and can give to any of us for the asking!  That was the purpose of the Crucifixion and taking DEATH ON when he didn’t even deserve a slap in the face yet HE did that for YOU!  You think you suffered?  Now compare it to Jesus Christ, all good and all love, perfect yet being blamed for all sin and the most evil ugly crimes and filthy scum horrible things committed by all humans that ever lived and will live being put on his heart and soul and taking them all as His own when he is ABSOLUTELY PURE LOVE and WITHOUT BLAME!  Why the hell would he do that and be suffering beyond any human’s comprehension of suffering, WHY?   I can tell you what you already KNOW!  He LOVES YOU that much and YOU mean that MUCH to Him!  He wants to SAVE us all but it MUST be a FREE WILL CHOICE!  That way you see and understand and then, you do love Him with all of your heart and soul.

I hear the hurt and also the defiance in your tone and heart saying yes I believe in my own way, but you are saying I’m pissed off at God and I don’t know what I believe for sure about all of that; except that I will try being a nice person, and helping kids or animals is my way of showing it!  When you say” why would God let all this bad happen to us and leave us to suffer in this messed up world;” you are playing into the hands of evil!   Anti-God, Anti-Christ atheists use that ploy all of the time saying there is NO God because if there was He would stop it all with the snap of fingers or blink of the eye.  Poppycock, so said the Devil; then we would be all bots that God made and have NO Free Will and thus NO Free Mind or Heart to actually choose to Love Him or each other!   I Say if there was no imperfection or evil nothing would go wrong, it would all be bliss as was mentioned in the Garden during INNOCENCE, before all of this!  But there must be positive and negative, light and dark in order to have Free Will and Creative Free Minds and Hearts!

You’re angry deep inside and I get it, and I am too at times but never at God; I know He helped me in many circumstances at times but didn’t stop bad shit from happening to me many times.  I have to blame myself first for some of it and then the rotten corrupted or even wicked persons that did me harm intentionally out of hate, jealousy or selfish material gain!  You may not like what I’m about to tell you but so be it because you need it!  You must strengthen your FAITH like never before and GROW in your LOVE for Him your personal Savior who is waiting for you to see how much He loves you, and what great plans He has for you!  “What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him.”   You can choose to believe that in your heart and mean it, or you can say whatever and pretend you believe as many people do today when they say I don’t talk about religion which is ridiculous on its face!  It’s like a leper to say you believe and I love God through His begotten Son, and I love Him so much I want to shout it from the roof tops?  To say you must be silent is saying you are not devout; and doing it in your own way is poppycock, you are mad and blaming God for your pain and suffering and have not opened your heart to Him and turned your life over to Him!  So many others suffer way more than our suffering!

This life is very short look how in your dad’s case 30ish years, which is like a puff on a cigarette as some folks that smoked many most their lives would say in terms of earthly time.  God is Timeless and Eternal and Pure Love, do you want that?  Then make up your mind and most importantly your HEART; to truly trust and love Him in return and hand it all over to Him!  If any of us makes the worst decision here in this short life we may find after it, that we pay for that wrong choice for ETERNITY; is it worth a gamble and just saying whatever and I’ll wait and see?  Not for me no way no how, I plan on being where God and all my loved ones and anything that is good will be for Eternity, so I can be happy, loving and loved beyond imagination!

God says in the Holy Scriptures this world is passing away, what do you think he said that for thousands of years ago?  Because in the book of Revelations it says it will all come to an end, and I see it happening without a doubt, so this is a temporary almost fake world compared to the Higher Spiritual complete and perfect world God has prepared for any who want it, but there is one way to get it!  JESUS CHRIST!  God suffered and took on all of that for any of us to have this chance now that is right in our faces!  Take it or leave it, the choice is yours!

Friend/Brother

Lawrence

This Is So Called Progress?

Inspired from current events and a conversation!

 

Doc there are many hoaxes being perpetrated upon the public for the sake of the few and greedy of this world!  Even like Huge Pharma Corporations that push drugs upon the public as a cure when in fact they are not but only treating symptomatically and not curing or helping to resolve the underlying cause of the disease, they want more steady hooked customers that is why R&D goes into bringing more such products to the market that are daily use for life!  Cancer in many cases is curable like was done to former President Jimmy Carter who was cured of his with the cutting edge science of manipulating the cancer cells to kill off themselves instead of extensive Chemo Drug therapy which we all know wreaks havoc on so much good tissue and organs in the body and in most cases is analogous with placing a thumb tack into Styrofoam with a sledge hammer!

I must add about trees and fires, in nature fires always occurred by lightning strikes long before people started causing so many now.  But nature was equipped to deal with this and over time the trees win out forming new growth forests!  I think too much blame gets put on Climate Change which humans can’t have much impact on anyway as the Sun has more to do with climatology change on earth than any human disruptions, and over time adaptation to conditions must occur which means people must get used to the idea that all this beach front property development is just castles made of sand and people where not meant to build cities and structure on the edge of the ocean, it’s a no brainer from the standpoint of geological and climatology time frames, we are just fools to think otherwise we can’t and shouldn’t try to force changes in the global system to suit profiteering greed to use the environment and manipulate it for monetary gain but should in fact do the opposite and live in synergy with Nature and think about long range effects and consequences.  It’s only been 150 years since the major thrust of the industrial revolution led mankind to alter the landscape and coastal areas in such enormous ways and that to me is like a fart in the wind in relation to what the Planetary System will do to our foolish schemes of development!  All this is dumb and dumber!  Perhaps not in our lifetimes but one or two more into the future the coastal regions will not be what they are now and extending that into the hundreds of years into the future some cities won’t exist.  Sensible planning on all fronts is what is needed and not this make a buck and only worry about today and to hell with tomorrow attitude of humans!

But my friend the human race is full of them, those that are only concerned with getting what they can while they can; and they have created a house of cards because greed was the driving force behind almost all human planning or lack thereof over the last hundred or so years, with those that were holding the reins of our societies and progress to suit one goal, to get more power and money!  Our political system thrives on that mind-set, look at any previous administration and what do we see?  People like the corrupt to the core Hillary who was jetting around the planet as SOS not to bring positive measures in global stability and sensibility, but only setting up PAY TO PLAY Schemes to Enrich her and all the cronies that sign up!  This is a system built on falsehood and lies!  If that basic underlying formula doesn’t change and soon, then we will see way more havoc in the future!  The rich shouldn’t be thinking about how to get F-N richer they should be thinking about putting all they have on the line to make sure things go well for all far into the FUTURE, not live for today bullshit with lack of accountability or responsibility!

Time for the human race to wake the hell up or guess what, nature and God will slap the whole damn species down into the dirt over time and time is growing much shorter or running out along the way as mankind shows how stupid it can be for selfish desire of power and greed!  The basic premise of thought is all wrong and that MUST STOP!  Rich jerks like Richard Branson racing to develop quarter million dollar rides to the edge of space for the wealthy to experience that!  People are the stupidest and most F-N foolish of all creatures!  What an asinine idea; and that is one of the filthy rich on this planet and shows what priorities they have and carry forward!  What a bunch of imbeciles!  And I must add in his case and all like him, ASSHOLES!

I take this opportunity to speak my mind about critical issues that will have dire consequences for all LIFE on EARTH if not dealt with much differently than has been the case and still continues unabated in the reckless stupid fashion that has dominated human endeavor and so called progress!  It’s mostly BULLSHIT!

Lawrence Morra

For Brownie’s Sake

Hi Doc, thanks for coming to help.  Dear Sir and Friend to all Animals and me, I concur with everything you said word for word and it all adds up to solid undeniable TRUTH!  I won’t repeat what I just wrote to Victoria’s or Sandra’s comments but between what both You and they had to say I know now this is not going to escape Justice and “full consequence” to the guilty; whosoever it may be will be caught and given a lifetime of punishment because God will demand it, never mind just what our man-made law says!

This poor little baby sentient being, I cry again sitting here writing about this matter “for Brownie’s sake” who was a curious little boy that went exploring the dangerous and even evil world, but he living a sheltered innocent life had not even a clue about how hideous some humans can be or what danger was lurking outside of his abode with his family!  Then this evil demon of a human which Brownie I can picture may have even childishly trusted, went toward the danger calling out to him thinking, who is this someone to meet and play with; then evil was unleashed upon him causing so much pain and fright; as he kept hearing these loud popping sounds and each one caused more pain each time in a different location throughout his body, all the while hearing a human laughing which he knew what that was, from all the happy times at home when he would be up to some little antic playing and his family would laugh so happily, but this laughter now sounded bad not like his families laughter which really tormented him because now he knew what it was to miss them like he never had before!  Then his legs beneath him gave way as all grew dark and cold; yet he still had horrific pain going through his entire body and all the sounds around him of nature and man’s technology got faint, then silence!   He was now alone in a place of such pain and loss that it frightened him to no end, it was so much worse than the physical pain this feeling of complete loss, and he in his heart and soul called out to his family but nothing changed and it just kept going on this way!   I want to die thinking about this, as I now sense myself in his place and want to make it stop, all of the pain and all of the loss, so that all is well and he is so very happy again with his joyous family showering love upon him and he to them, like he just woke from a crazy hellish dream, but, that it was just a dream!

But, we know different you and I that his precious beautiful innocent life was robbed from him and he is faced with such tragic sadness that only a miracle will change it now!   I pray for Brownie now and I ask God to please help!   I even beg you Lord, I say I’m so sorry for any sins I ever made or committed, with my heart full of sorrow for Brownie as I now cry my heart out only wanting Brownie to be fine again!   I ask this in Your Holy Name Lord Jesus Christ!  Amen

This Holy Scripture came to mind after reading your comments.

As far as the culprit that did this I think it’s equivalent to what Luke 17 says about a similar situation regarding harming the Innocent, “whosoever causes a little one to stumble would be better off thrown into the ocean with a heavy millstone tied around their neck.”  Amen

Lawrence Morra

More Moments in Time

Dear Friend,

If you can listen I have a bit of explaining to do and I want to start right off by apologizing for my own lack of fortitude emotionally to see me through a period of several difficult days that reached a fever pitch over the last few!  I’ve been going through something indeed for years now without any final abatement!  It seems like I got over one major obstacle tossed in my path and momentarily feeling like the burden was gone to find that only another was taking its place!  This unrelenting turmoil has taken a drastic toll on my health and appearance causing me much disappointment but I still each day get up with the “can do” objectivity in mind that I can handle anything if the Lord gives me enough inner strength which He always has, but the failure comes with my own flesh being weak not able to match my spirit!  Then when a person or two toss curves at me I get sad and then angry!  I figured I had enough bullshit from people doing harm to me and not the other way around to last me the rest of my life; but who can really know my place or what it’s like being me, as they aren’t in my shoes so there isn’t a true appreciation of who and what I am.  That works both ways and so I see that I have no one to blame but myself for any mishaps and I own up and seek to find peace and resolution, to work at being better at handling whatever burden I have or will have in the future, I really have no choice, it’s do or die and that is how I see it!

You’ve been extremely silent and I’m hoping it’s because you are just way too busy and doing well; just not having a moments time for anyone else’s drama!  I thought of something as I was walking my dog thinking about all of this and I realized why I like the movie “John Wick,” not just because I really like Keanu Reeves and the way the film was put together but mainly because I identity with his sadness and anger in the story plot having been so wronged and then he sets out to take care of business sort of like a human angel or agent of God’s to exact justice and rid the world of some dirt!  But of course that is fantasy and just a good entertaining movie.  I was wronged in most respects far worse than John Wick and my health and even tissues were altered by very wicked minded nefarious persons working for evil!  I’ve been antagonized by evil because evil does seek to destroy and trip any of us up to over react and cause more difficulty, which I have never done nor will I!  I only get hurt and sad then angry and even cry, realizing I must take it and keep going sort of the way Jake LaMotta the famed fighter of “Raging Bull” played by DiNero!  What did he tell Sugar Ray Robinson when he was beat and badly bruised not only physically but emotionally after having the fight called against him, “you never got me down Ray!”  That is quite the metaphor for all of us to consider when life is brutal or when our enemies get the upper hand and knock us on our ass!

I messed up this week and I have a lot I’ve been carrying that pains me deeply and it’s not going away anytime soon and at times looks like it will only get worse!  Then I see how this world is spinning madly out of control Geo-politically and how domestically we have so many screwed up people that are running this country into the ground and morals and values are in the toilet!  Then of course being a man of faith I see that Scriptures indicate “end time” being much like this and that adds the final whammy which puts me over the top emotionally.  After all I’ve been dealing with I’ve grown weary of practically all people even many relatives who aren’t any better than strangers, in some ways worse!

So I get feeling isolated and really sad but that is a “key,” I see myself feeling sorry for myself a little too much perhaps, and that is wrong I don’t want that I would rather feel sorry for sick little children and old ladies and grand dads that are Veterans who served and suffered so badly for all of we Americans!  I’m changing Sir, and I hope completely for the better so that even if I won’t ever be who and what I just was a short number of years OK, it will be only in appearance because inside I will be so much better and more of what God wants me to be for His purpose and plan!  Excuse me I just started crying.

I’m getting close today to forgiving myself for screwing up but most important to me is that you can be the strong man I see and believe you to be; being able to find it within yourself to forgive me.  That will mean a lot to me and maybe make the world of difference in my getting clear of my own demons!

Thank you for your time and expertise along with the insurmountable friendship and fellowship you provided to me all along!

God Bless You and Yours!

With Remorse,

Lawrence  Morra