Hi Pam! Beautiful photos! I’m sorry to hear about the sorrow and it’s always tougher to cope with the emotions around the special holidays; being here without them! I even get that way not just over missing my beloved family members but even my dogs! I think it comes down to we are here and have to face this world day in and day out but getting more lonely at times because we lose more of our most precious blessed relationships that we in a sense, our world, when we look back, but none of this continues on in perpetuity! I get that feeling like I’m so much more isolated and having to face so much, like I would no matter what anyway, but, to not have those special people close by makes it seem so hard to see the good in my own still being here! Then I snap out of it because I’ve always been an ultimately positive person or the true eternal optimist! I always see the glass half full and figure I’m still here for better reasons than I can come up with at times, but, that is where my faith in Jesus Christ is the overwhelming drive in me; because I do totally believe in Him! I know from experiences that he won’t ever disappoint me, but, I have to do whatever I’m required to do, and even if I were totally alone, I would make myself do it, never quitting!
A friend I used to work with who studied to be a priest then God gave him an epiphany that he was to go onto a different path which ultimately was good for many reasons I’m sure, but for me because I would not have met this man and had the opportunity to sit during lunch hours for some years talking about these kinds of things and so many important topics! This man was very well read and deep like me but I tend to be a more emotional and overly sensitive at times sort of guy; I cry like a baby watching some movies; say like The Passion of The Christ! I sob like you wouldn’t’ believe, for a grown man to get so bent out of shape watching a movie, but, some things trigger so much in me that needs to come out! Crying is good, I think not just as a catharsis, so long as I can get out that release of emotion because it’s one of the deepest genuine emotions that makes me a human being, and then also painfully aware of our dilemma, of being fallen which is terribly sad and broken! All humans really damned to hell for eternity if not for what Jesus Christ our merciful God Almighty did and is doing to give His children a golden opportunity to be individuals, each so unique and with free minds that are hopefully aligning with Him because we want to, and that is the greatest true expression of love back to our God, loving him totally with all of our being because we want to; as He loves us. And then in seeing this I can say OK thank you God and now I have my things to do and I’m fine; help me Lord to do your will I really want to do it and I’m ready to keep trying!
This friend and I were alone in the lunch room finishing our lunch after others had left already, when I got to show how upset I was about losing my oldest dog the one I had gotten as an adult and my first since when I was a boy. I said, I have to see her again and I can’t stand this, because I miss her too much and God I wish I could just see her again now! Do you know what this finely educated and very Christian man said! Back then I was more shocked but now I just see even more clearly it was the best thing; he said “you’re being selfish, that dog was not yours just like none of your loved ones are yours! They all belong to God and you should be thankful God blessed you with them for the time you had together with them! You just don’t want to let go and you’re being possessive!” OH MY GOD, he woke me up and now even years later I see how true that is, I get so selfish and don’t turn it over to God and say, OK Lord, I’m here and they are not so I have to trust you to make things right again someday, so you are testing my faith and I can handle this! I’m crying now saying this here because it’s all true and I can’t be like that, I have to say for a while, I’m very sad and missing my dog or family members that are not here, but, I do trust you Lord and I’m happy, really I am; inside my heart they still live with me because you are in my heart Jesus, and this is all that matters that I do believe in you, and I can see them all again someday when You decide; so just help me Lord to carry on and do the Father’s will while I’m still on earth!
A priest I used to know as a friend who ended up dying of cancer after I had only known him for several years told me something after he lost his dog, he even felt the way I did emotionally, and his dog had the same name as mine too. He said he was at the vets when his dog with cancer had to be euthanized, and he wept, then the vet told him that the best thing to do when you feel ready and the sooner the better is find another dog that needs such a kind loving person like you; to give it a forever home! He did that and it was like magical how he ended up with Abbey who when he went to a shelter she got out of the hands of the technician down the other end of the kennel and ran right to the priest and jumped up on him making him fall on the floor and she was licking him all over his face; so guess who got a home and who was so joyful; both were, the dog called Abbey and the priest; and he had gone to two other kennels with no success and the third was the charm!
Look Pam I’m nobody really as I see it, and I’m good with that because this world is tough and so many people are fooling themselves thinking they have it all, and have some giant grip on life and pleasures; having so much in this material world but they are the losers in the end; they fool themselves while others are scrambling around trying to get the same they have and be famous or whatever; it’s a poison! The meek inherit the earth and I think that means to me anyway; that the more humble we are the more we are fulfilled and see God at work in our lives assuring us daily that we don’t need anything, other than what He sees fit for each of us, but, when we reject that and go it alone like so many do they are heading toward misery and maybe much worse! Taking this life one day at a time and just appreciating all those simple free things in life like you have in your gardening or with your cute dogs and of course with your husband are worth way more than millions of dollars, and there is no price tag that is enough as I see it to take those things away from me, I love just feeding the birds and squirrels or other animals that show up; and just hugging my dog that I rescued years ago by showing up when the order was already signed sealed and delivered for her to be terminated the following morning first thing. I showed up by a God Send and they don’t reverse those euthanize orders ever, but in this case I got this dog a reprieve from the chief of police overnight; unheard of and she was deemed UN-adoptable, now 16 years later still getting a life with the one person she has ever really gotten to know inside and out basically, my emotions and silliness!
We are only here a short time and where we are going is permanent and never ending so our job as I see it is to learn and do the darn best we can to improve, to be Strong in our Trust and Faith in Him our Savior! He has us all covered if we just listen to Him and do the Father’s will to our best ability, and that is fine, we are fallen so none of us is perfect or capable of more, but we have to mean it and really try is all! Don’t worry we are going to see all of our cherished ones again down the road, they will be waiting for us and then we will rejoice with them and all of the angels in heaven forever with God! It’s all good in the end isn’t that what matters most! Hang in there!
Pam, in case you might have some time today or soon, I think some of the things I point out here are very helpful to me and I believe they can be for you also! Either way I send my blessings and prayers to you!
God bless you!
Brother in Christ Jesus,
“Sometimes our mistakes take us to a better place than where we had previously been heading to or found ourselves in”
Yesterday I was in a bit of a hurry and made some typo errors that I missed but like an artist painting on a canvas some of the greatest things came into being on that canvas when a mistake or not totally intentional thing happened, so then the artist incorporates this what could have been seen as a flaw into something even more special; producing some of the great masterpieces ever painted!
So today when I was able to take my time as I usually try to do I saw my Errors, but then suddenly like a brainchild or maybe a bolt of lightening even, a thought came to my mind about something miraculous that happened years back immediately after I left the side of a very close family member who was in the hospital taking his last breaths, and I was told later that as soon as I walked out through that hospital room door and it closed behind me, my beloved family member took his last breath. But, here is the to me an obvious God Send which was a huge bolt of Truth Lightening; that was a giant direct message from God Himself!
As soon as I got home I had been holding back my tears trying to be strong like my family member always was especially in public or around other loved ones! I began to cry and went right over to my Bible sitting on the night table next to my bed and picked it up. While at the same time saying; like I did the time I was caught in the undertow about to drown while surfing just after a hurricane had just passed by the area, “please Jesus don’t let me die,”only this time saying, dear Jesus please help me understand I’m so “broken-hearted.” As I said that then turning my attention to the Bible and my hands just allowing it to split open it miraculously opened to John 14. Pam I can say this with absolute confidence that its all right there; the answer was crystal clear to me that night when I looked down onto this page in my Bible and began reading, because suddenly my tears of sadness were wiped away and I tell you true, I still was tearing, but now, they were happy tears of joy as the Truth came into me via the Holy Spirit of God Almighty! I have never had a doubt since about what happened that fateful night, how my loved one is in heaven with God; and I’m going to be there with them! We can fast forward to now and I say the same thing with one caveat which is; I have my work to do here still, as in God wants me to improve and learn what it is I must, so I can be even better than the man I was in the past and be as deserving, as my dearly departed family member had been; on this earth for all of his good life! Amen.
Jesus Comforts His Disciples1 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God ; believe also in me. 2My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? 3And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. 4You know the way to the place where I am going.”
Jesus the Way to the Father5Thomas said to him, “Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?”6Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. 7If you really know me, you will know my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”8Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.”9Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’? 10Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. 11Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the works themselves. 12Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. 13And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.”
Jesus Promises the Holy Spirit15 “If you love me, keep my commands. 16And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. 18I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 19Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 20On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. 21Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”22Then Judas (not Judas Iscariot) said, “But, Lord, why do you intend to show yourself to us and not to the world?”23Jesus replied, “Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them. 24Anyone who does not love me will not obey my teaching. These words you hear are not my own; they belong to the Father who sent me.”25 “All this I have spoken while still with you. 26But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. 27Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”28 “You heard me say, ‘I am going away and I am coming back to you.’ If you loved me, you would be glad that I am going to the Father, for the Father is greater than I. 29I have told you now before it happens, so that when it does happen you will believe. 30I will not say much more to you, for the prince of this world is coming. He has no hold over me, 31but he comes so that the world may learn that I love the Father and do exactly what my Father has commanded me.“Come now; let us leave.”
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Read in this essay how Jesus saved me from drowning that fateful day!
I’m having a difficult time this Christmas. It’s like going through menopause again: sadness, hysteria, anger, bursting into tears for no reason… I was sad when my adoptive parents passed, but losing my father is something completely different. And I only had him for three years! (Here comes the anger again.)
Thought it was getting better but it’s worse. Maybe after Christmas?
Many years ago after a breakup I was gifted the book “How to Survive the Loss of a Love”. It helped immensely and found it was good for other losses as well. Just ordered a new copy.