I believe and feel in my heart that I’m truly blessed to be suffering. I thank God for my suffering here in my sinful life, here on earth. For over a decade I’ve been suffering more than I did in all the years of my prior life in totality. They say God never gives us more than we can handle but He does give to us what we need most, as He is our heavenly Father and knows with absolutism what each of us needs specifically in order for us to complete this earthly journey intact, that is our souls being worthy of being in His presence on our judgment day. And just like the Good Shepherd knowing his lost lamb when found and it knowing the Good Shepherd we will know our Master and Good Shepherd Jesus and He will know us as His. Then we pass through the narrow gate with Him in all of His glory into eternal paradise.
I know through this suffering now as difficult as it has been and is that all of my suffering only scratches the surface of what suffering Jesus withstood just on His journey to the cross, being hated, ridiculed, beaten and spat upon; then nailed to a cross to die slowly in agony! My suffering is so little yet it is a heavy burden which I struggle with only as a mere sinful man to get through it to hopefully better days ahead. After all who am I that I shouldn’t suffer, I’m like any other sin riddled human being and should suffer, especially if I want to be deserving of an eternal glorious existence. By giving me this suffering God is reminding me of what waits on the opposite end or wrong choice if I so choose, of the God man paradigm that must be soul based on faith and obedience. I have been faithful all of my life, but not strong enough in that faith at all times as I should have been. And why, because I disobeyed my heavenly Father who knows all things and always knows what is best for me, but I thought I knew better at times and went off on my own not consulting with him or perhaps being even half-cocked and unprepared for the subsequent consequences of my own foolish actions and even stupidity because I was foolish enough on my own to think I knew what I was doing.
Then there were quite a few other humans that attacked me or in the least antagonized me in my suffering but remembering and seeing now that all of it was nothing compared to Jesus and what he must have felt. We must realize when he took up His “everlasting covenant” he was here as a man, a perfect one but still a man with flesh and all the accompanying pains and sorrows that come with being human. To that was added all the sins and death from sinful behaviors of all kinds by all humans which was dumped upon Him, He who was the supernatural God Almighty, but also for a time an earthy man carrying that entire load and burden of sin and suffering! And through it all He called out to His heavenly Father consistently and directly asking for strength and “divine providence” in each step he resisted all temptations to follow His own will as a man avoiding and conquering every human sin that we have committed making Him blameless, so that He could carry out His Fathers will, not his own even though he was a flesh man and could have resorted to His own devices or stray from the mission; no instead He faithfully called out to His Father to help Him get through it all and complete His one soul mission, saving all of mankind His children, the lost lambs. He loves us that much and more than we can imagine! He is so happy to give this gift of eternal life to us, as long as we are willing to be obedient and faithful to Him, allowing Him to lead our way.
Today I suffer greatly my heart sorrowful and my body is wretched; but someday maybe soon or many in many years to come that will all pass away and “I can be made whole in Him,” a complete and perfect child of God, that is what He promised me and you!
John 1:16 “Out of his fullness we have all received grace in place of grace already given.”
The Word Became Flesh
1 “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was with God in the beginning. 3 Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. 4 In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.”
6 “There was a man sent from God whose name was John. 7 He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all might believe. 8 He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light.”
9 “The true light that gives light to everyone was coming into the world. 10 He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. 11 He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. 12 Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— 13 children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.”
John 1: 26-27 “I baptize with water,” John replied, “but among you stands one you do not know. 27 He is the one who comes after me, the straps of whose sandals I am not worthy to untie.”