I believe and feel in my heart that I’m truly blessed to be suffering. I thank God for my suffering here in my sinful life, here on earth. For over a decade I’ve been suffering more than I did in all the years of my prior life in totality. They say God never gives us more than we can handle but He does give to us what we need most, as He is our heavenly Father and knows with absolutism what each of us needs specifically in order for us to complete this earthly journey intact, that is our souls being worthy of being in His presence on our judgment day. And just like the Good Shepherd knowing his lost lamb when found and it knowing the Good Shepherd we will know our Master and Good Shepherd Jesus and He will know us as His. Then we pass through the narrow gate with Him in all of His glory into eternal paradise.
I know through this suffering now as difficult as it has been and is that all of my suffering only scratches the surface of what suffering Jesus withstood just on His journey to the cross, being hated, ridiculed, beaten and spat upon; then nailed to a cross to die slowly in agony! My suffering is so little yet it is a heavy burden which I struggle with only as a mere sinful man to get through it to hopefully better days ahead. After all who am I that I shouldn’t suffer, I’m like any other sin riddled human being and should suffer, especially if I want to be deserving of an eternal glorious existence. By giving me this suffering God is reminding me of what waits on the opposite end or wrong choice if I so choose, of the God man paradigm that must be soul based on faith and obedience. I have been faithful all of my life, but not strong enough in that faith at all times as I should have been. And why, because I disobeyed my heavenly Father who knows all things and always knows what is best for me, but I thought I knew better at times and went off on my own not consulting with him or perhaps being even half-cocked and unprepared for the subsequent consequences of my own foolish actions and even stupidity because I was foolish enough on my own to think I knew what I was doing.
Then there were quite a few other humans that attacked me or in the least antagonized me in my suffering but remembering and seeing now that all of it was nothing compared to Jesus and what he must have felt. We must realize when he took up His “everlasting covenant” he was here as a man, a perfect one but still a man with flesh and all the accompanying pains and sorrows that come with being human. To that was added all the sins and death from sinful behaviors of all kinds by all humans which was dumped upon Him, He who was the supernatural God Almighty, but also for a time an earthy man carrying that entire load and burden of sin and suffering! And through it all He called out to His heavenly Father consistently and directly asking for strength and “divine providence” in each step he resisted all temptations to follow His own will as a man avoiding and conquering every human sin that we have committed making Him blameless, so that He could carry out His Fathers will, not his own even though he was a flesh man and could have resorted to His own devices or stray from the mission; no instead He faithfully called out to His Father to help Him get through it all and complete His one soul mission, saving all of mankind His children, the lost lambs. He loves us that much and more than we can imagine! He is so happy to give this gift of eternal life to us, as long as we are willing to be obedient and faithful to Him, allowing Him to lead our way.
Today I suffer greatly my heart sorrowful and my body is wretched; but someday maybe soon or many in many years to come that will all pass away and “I can be made whole in Him,” a complete and perfect child of God, that is what He promised me and you!
Lawrence Morra
John 1:16 “Out of his fullness we have all received grace in place of grace already given.”
John 1-6
The Word Became Flesh
1 “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was with God in the beginning. 3 Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. 4 In him was life, and that life was the light of all mankind. 5 The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.”
6 “There was a man sent from God whose name was John. 7 He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all might believe. 8 He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light.”
9 “The true light that gives light to everyone was coming into the world. 10 He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. 11 He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. 12 Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God— 13 children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.”
John 1: 26-27 “I baptize with water,” John replied, “but among you stands one you do not know. 27 He is the one who comes after me, the straps of whose sandals I am not worthy to untie.”
Zero Lift-Off 
My precious son, He LETS us suffer for His glory. He never puts suffering on anyone. His love and compassion is eternal. Someone that has no cronic condition cannot understand. You give hope to others. My daughter and sister have had cronic pain for years also. Please pray for them. Love in Christ.
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Yes Dear Mom; what you say is so, but what He “allows,” because there is nothing He can’t take away in the twinkling of an eye, but is for “His Glory,” and in many instances it is to serve His will and purpose which we be unawares. Sometimes, I believe our personal suffering is an absolute gift and penance for others to help them gain graces by our suffering and offering it up which they otherwise may never have achieved or appreciated otherwise. As an example I learned so much from my Dad’s selfless suffering with back pain that he never complained to me or anyone in our family about once, he just carried it forward saying “God allows it and that’s all I need to know, and I’m fine;” after all a family’s love is most powerful when at work helping and protecting, so all these years later since my boyhood my Dad’s example and offering of suffering is still effecting and helping me in such a powerful way! Could this also be why I always tried to go out of my way to protect and help my sisters? You already have mentioned a few members of your family who have in the past or now suffer severely but it was not in vain, and your telling me and others about them has brought their sacrifices to life in others hearts to continue doing God’s work here on earth where there is so much that still needs to be done! Jesus suffered like no one ever could, and your personal suffering is unique to you as mine is to me, so these are very special personalized offerings we are making for Him and His plan, and He loves us also for taking up these crosses for Him, which we can’t truly fathom or fully comprehend the total significance of; for we are only the lost lambs now with all the potential to be His children eternally, but you do recall Scripture tells us that we see or peer out into this existence as “through a veil” not seeing enough to know even a substantial portion of what there is to see and know. As Jesus said, “Verily I say unto thee there is more in the unseen world than there is in the seen.” I now believe through experience and His teachings that suffering is an integral part of life and our journey to Him, but this suffering can be wasted or can instead be lifted up by Him and through Him to allow us to receive His graces just as we were allowed to receive suffering unto ourselves and others according to His divine plan and will. It may seem odd to some but I’m learning that I’m actually joyful to have suffered as long as it is going to help someone here, either those around me or that read my words and hopefully even a little is left for me too. Because now through actual experience and hardship I know a little about suffering and pain and how we all must; “Work out your own salvation with fear and trembling.” Philippians 2:12 This because; none of us surely don’t want to not obtain “our salvation” as the consequence and loss is incomprehensible; that death is complete extinguishing and severing of all that is God from a soul, the complete opposite of salvation, which should make anyone who is sane and able to comprehend these basic truths, to tremble with fear knowing that any of us has the potential to end up in that accursed realm; oblivion! Yes in a sense like the tree I saved Friday, that was being swallowed up by an invasive parasitic vine smothering and slowing severing its life in the light where it belonged! I saved a tree, but I and you along with so many others can save our fellow souls or lost lambs; perhaps by pointing out a truth or offering up our suffering for them! Thanks be to God, in the name of Jesus. Amen
Son Lawrence
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Excellent my son. Those who will have eternal life thru Christ Jesus and who refuse are going to eternal darkness. We glory in our God of Light..:)
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Absolutely Mom! You know I just thought seeing your comment how great it really is that we know the truth and we want what God wants for us; and we are going to obtain it if we continue to hang in there and by our devoted faith in Him; He will never ever allow us to fail and be lost; once we leave this world we are “going to join Him!” I just know it is going to happen and I feel it deep in my core, my soul! Yes we glory in the Light and Truth of our heavenly Father through His Son Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior! Amen.
All Love, Son in Christ,
Lawrence
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Amen. Wisdom.
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Thank You Dear Mom, you’re such a wonderfully supportive fine Lady! I hope you’re feeling very well; I did respond and was out mowing some lawn earlier; with a dust mask on of course! Have dinner cooking so must not tarry online! Talk soon!
God Bless You!
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Blessings to you also.:)
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Hi Caralyn Sister in Christ Jesus, you and your blogging crossed my mind a few times today starting in the wee hours when I conceptualized my feelings contained in my latest blog; and how I hadn’t received email notifications of any of your latest blogs; I actually wondered why and how this could be, and of course the first silly thing that came to my mind because I tend to worry was maybe I said something off the cuff which, ha ha, I do a fair amount of with anyone from time to time. So, low and behold immediately after I got finished tending to watering plants and trees around here with my dog who was relaxing the whole time, and got back inside to check the scene out online, and suddenly there was your “like for my blog” today which is very uncanny to say the least, but we know how God works in mysterious ways; which by the way I appreciate and want to send out a big special thank you! But then, I entered your name into the browser and several of the recent visits to your home page came up but this one stood out to me I believe because there was connection in what you said here in this very good blog about “Faith” which is deeply significant to what I wrote today; both your writing here and mine today revolve or pivot on that central factor; and how when you wrote this during your trip home with family for the 4th of July reminded me of some past times I had with family like that when many of those family were still on earth; and how much times have changed for me, but the mission has not, it only intensified. Fortunately I’ve had tons of past good to draw on as I strive by faith to find my way, more certain and committed than ever, in spite of the pain or suffering! Now I like my Father both earthly and heavenly, who showed me by his example say, God is allowing it for His purpose and will, and I say to myself and now you; I’m fine! I hope you are too, and that you and your family get together each and every opportunity that you have to do so!
God Bless You and Yours.
Lawrence
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