I’m very sad that you suffered my friend along with your family and believe your Dad suffered through all that turmoil and dishing out his abuse which was from a tormented soul. I do know there is God, and justice will always prevail, even though we don’t always see it or get the picture right away it is all going to come out that good overcame evil, light overcame the darkness! What you went through was absolutely horrible and heartbreaking to me, I even cry thinking of the little girl being subjected to all of that when by right she should have been caressed with gentle and comforting, nurturing love and affection by all those around her that were and are her family!
Now look, you made it through all of it and on this side of that earthly hellish nightmare you do good things and taught your kids to do the same which it sounds like they get it and live as peacefully and proper as they should and can, which is a credit to your determination not to do harm and be a horrid parent like your dad was! Don’t be sad or angry when I say this, but I even feel pity on your dad and see so much waste and loss by his being consumed by the alcohol and devils that go along with it. Scripture as you know addresses remaining sober at all times, and says we should not to fall into drunkenness; and why is that do you think? Because then one opens them self up to all manner of corruption and yes evil! As I told you I actually put out an effort to have my former cousin in-law much the kind of person your dad was, thought of in special prayers by a highly devout group of Christian Brothers of the Catholic Church which along with my own thoughts and prayers is my sincere hope that he won’t be damned to hell which is permanent as you know once God judges a soul!
I believe in hope and that is why I see it the way I do even for my cousin in-law who like you got me so angry at times I felt he would be better off dead but that was not up to me even though I asked God to take him as I’m sure my cousin did at times and you and your mom did your dad! That HOPE thing is important to hold dear in the heart, because it has much to do with what we are here for and goes to the question you ask as to why God would let this suffering of yours go on like it did! I’m sure you agree we are learning from all of this good, bad and ugly by means of FREE WILL. If God steps in and stops this or that in the billions of lives on earth then He is a Master Puppeteer and this is all some theater type shows for his amusements, do you get that? God is the greatest LOVE and we are minute peons in comparison to the actual LOVE He has and can give to any of us for the asking! That was the purpose of the Crucifixion and taking DEATH ON when he didn’t even deserve a slap in the face yet HE did that for YOU! You think you suffered? Now compare it to Jesus Christ, all good and all love, perfect yet being blamed for all sin and the most evil ugly crimes and filthy scum horrible things committed by all humans that ever lived and will live being put on his heart and soul and taking them all as His own when he is ABSOLUTELY PURE LOVE and WITHOUT BLAME! Why the hell would he do that and be suffering beyond any human’s comprehension of suffering, WHY? I can tell you what you already KNOW! He LOVES YOU that much and YOU mean that MUCH to Him! He wants to SAVE us all but it MUST be a FREE WILL CHOICE! That way you see and understand and then, you do love Him with all of your heart and soul.
I hear the hurt and also the defiance in your tone and heart saying yes I believe in my own way, but you are saying I’m pissed off at God and I don’t know what I believe for sure about all of that; except that I will try being a nice person, and helping kids or animals is my way of showing it! When you say” why would God let all this bad happen to us and leave us to suffer in this messed up world;” you are playing into the hands of evil! Anti-God, Anti-Christ atheists use that ploy all of the time saying there is NO God because if there was He would stop it all with the snap of fingers or blink of the eye. Poppycock, so said the Devil; then we would be all bots that God made and have NO Free Will and thus NO Free Mind or Heart to actually choose to Love Him or each other! I Say if there was no imperfection or evil nothing would go wrong, it would all be bliss as was mentioned in the Garden during INNOCENCE, before all of this! But there must be positive and negative, light and dark in order to have Free Will and Creative Free Minds and Hearts!
You’re angry deep inside and I get it, and I am too at times but never at God; I know He helped me in many circumstances at times but didn’t stop bad shit from happening to me many times. I have to blame myself first for some of it and then the rotten corrupted or even wicked persons that did me harm intentionally out of hate, jealousy or selfish material gain! You may not like what I’m about to tell you but so be it because you need it! You must strengthen your FAITH like never before and GROW in your LOVE for Him your personal Savior who is waiting for you to see how much He loves you, and what great plans He has for you! “What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him.” You can choose to believe that in your heart and mean it, or you can say whatever and pretend you believe as many people do today when they say I don’t talk about religion which is ridiculous on its face! It’s like a leper to say you believe and I love God through His begotten Son, and I love Him so much I want to shout it from the roof tops? To say you must be silent is saying you are not devout; and doing it in your own way is poppycock, you are mad and blaming God for your pain and suffering and have not opened your heart to Him and turned your life over to Him! So many others suffer way more than our suffering!
This life is very short look how in your dad’s case 30ish years, which is like a puff on a cigarette as some folks that smoked many most their lives would say in terms of earthly time. God is Timeless and Eternal and Pure Love, do you want that? Then make up your mind and most importantly your HEART; to truly trust and love Him in return and hand it all over to Him! If any of us makes the worst decision here in this short life we may find after it, that we pay for that wrong choice for ETERNITY; is it worth a gamble and just saying whatever and I’ll wait and see? Not for me no way no how, I plan on being where God and all my loved ones and anything that is good will be for Eternity, so I can be happy, loving and loved beyond imagination!
God says in the Holy Scriptures this world is passing away, what do you think he said that for thousands of years ago? Because in the book of Revelations it says it will all come to an end, and I see it happening without a doubt, so this is a temporary almost fake world compared to the Higher Spiritual complete and perfect world God has prepared for any who want it, but there is one way to get it! JESUS CHRIST! God suffered and took on all of that for any of us to have this chance now that is right in our faces! Take it or leave it, the choice is yours!
In my commenting regarding the current debate this TRUTH came out!
I will stop it, no kidding, whatever it is that you identify that I do that’s needs stopping I will as long as it’s not good for me to do it! As for example when guys like you attack Our President of these United States of America as though you are part of some other country and Trump is not your President duly elected and doing a good job I might add! So, right out of the gate, if my giving you a hard time firing back at your attacks is bothersome I’m more than glad to stop them if you stop your attacks on the President or his administrations policies for keeping America safe for its CITIZENS! CITIZENS ALWAYS should come first! If the wall is necessary to accomplish that then I am all for sealing up the border with a wall, which I know from specifics already discussed openly with top officials on the border that in the locations where there is already substantial barriers the illegal crossings are very slim to none! The problem also is that by having a porous border that is an open invitation for all sorts of people to head here just to walk on in and get on the gravy train of welfare, food stamps, reduced or no rent costs and free medical all paid for by hard working tax paying citizens! Many of the adults DRAGGING children thousands of miles to do that proves immediately that they are not good adults or parents if they are even the actual biological parents to subject children to that kind of madness and danger! It’s not my fault or our Presidents fault that children die along the way and even upon getting here so acutely ill with many times contagious even incurable diseases that they bring to our country and infect our Citizens with! Resistant strains of TB, Typhus and Yellow Fever among many others are being brought here by these “illegal invaders!” Rule of Law must apply to all on American Soil, and immigration must follow LAWS and RULES!!! Time to man up and be honest and admit the Dem party along with some faker Repubs have allowed the immigration problems to fester way too long and Trump is working to put a stop to the mess and I agree secure the border with a wall and then fix the enforcement and watch how fast caravans become a thing of the past!!!
“Lawrence, “Brilliantly” written and spot on accurate. The problem with the clowns we are dealing with on this site is that they are so brainwashed to Hate President Trump and the Republicans that they don’t know any better. Forget about listening to Fox or CNBC or CNN . Citizens have the access to fact check using the internet in search of the truth. Obviously you and I have done that . The ones that don’t deal in facts are paid Trolls from the lovely Democrats and George Soros who are trying to corrupt these sites the same way they have bought off the News agencies and News Papers.”
Please let me thank You Sir, not only for your thoughtful and honest words but also for being one of New York City’s Finest Police Officers for all those years! You are most certainly qualified and justified to know much more than many on these posts about security and what it takes to accomplish it! You Sir inspire me and you just have caused me to remember that I can use these very same words on a blog, including yours anonymously, more like a news flash to enlighten and open the eyes of others; God knows there are plenty of them who need to awaken to the truth! I appreciate your bringing up George Soros who I’ve mentioned before in other posts and writings, as he is a very vile person doing great harm to so many with his deceptive nefarious practices and agendas, by means of his extensive influence and tools at his disposal to manipulate the media! You are so right; how citizens here are free to fact check having at their fingertips the resources to investigate in order to find or uncover the truth or facts enabling them to decipher it from all of the lies. No excuse to be in the dark unless one wants to be! God Bless You and Yours! Happy New Year!
There is absolutely no doubt about it that this country; indeed the world is in dire straits! Too many citizens have become “sheeple” and then there are multitudes of illegals here that VOTE along with all the left swinging Porte Ricans that are being brought into the mainland to effectuate high Dem counts in certain precincts (in Florida for one with so many electoral votes) to yet get more left wing nut candidates into office! All this F-N FAKE Russian Collusion Election influencing is distraction from what our own Dem Party and News Media are doing to tilt the elections in favor of the “Left Wing Evil Agenda” in the next general election! The real manipulation of the masses is being conducted right here under our noses by so called Americas who are nothing more than traitors and the actual most prolific enemy!
“Lawrence, Modern liberals care nothing for America or Americans or veterans!”
Al of course that is true and what does it mean; that question is most important to stay focused on! Two things, first those things they care nothing about are portions of the foundation of Our Nation and Freedom, so they are saying they want Anarchy and perhaps tyrannical rule over all peoples, NWO (new world order)! Second, this means “We the Patriots of America” will have to teach all of these traitors how to love these things we hold sacred or they will have to die! The Muslims are here being coddled and allowed to advance their Agenda right under our noses which is to proliferate Islam the political ideology; which says all peoples not in alignment with Islam are Infidels and must join up or die! Nice mix we have going here thanks to all the EVIL DEMONCRAP party and some FAKE Republicans! It’s a SHIT SANDWICH and they are forcing us to all take a BIG BITE!
You know a war is going on here and it’s going to get much worse until “We The People” are willing to take Our Country back from the Politicians and Lawyers along with the manipulator NOT FREE PRESS but BIASED as “ALL GET OUT LIE MACHINE!” This I am sorry to say will all end when blood is spilled massively! That F-N Bitch Pelosi with Schumer carrying on the way they do is proof enough that it’s now too little too late to talk about talking! TALK and BULLSHIT WALK! Time to MAN-UP and be ready to ROCK AND ROLL!!! The FBI can’t be trusted anymore and all sorts of injustices are happening everyday across this Nation due to DEEP STATE PARTISAN CORRUPTION and I know I had crimes committed against me personally by the F-N bastards right in my face and space, but I don’t care so much about that because it’s all small potatoes and what really is coming is HUGE! WAR! RIGHT HERE in the good old USA!
God Bless America and all of You Fellow Patriotic American CITIZENS!
Inspired from current events and a conversation!
Doc there are many hoaxes being perpetrated upon the public for the sake of the few and greedy of this world! Even like Huge Pharma Corporations that push drugs upon the public as a cure when in fact they are not but only treating symptomatically and not curing or helping to resolve the underlying cause of the disease, they want more steady hooked customers that is why R&D goes into bringing more such products to the market that are daily use for life! Cancer in many cases is curable like was done to former President Jimmy Carter who was cured of his with the cutting edge science of manipulating the cancer cells to kill off themselves instead of extensive Chemo Drug therapy which we all know wreaks havoc on so much good tissue and organs in the body and in most cases is analogous with placing a thumb tack into Styrofoam with a sledge hammer!
I must add about trees and fires, in nature fires always occurred by lightning strikes long before people started causing so many now. But nature was equipped to deal with this and over time the trees win out forming new growth forests! I think too much blame gets put on Climate Change which humans can’t have much impact on anyway as the Sun has more to do with climatology change on earth than any human disruptions, and over time adaptation to conditions must occur which means people must get used to the idea that all this beach front property development is just castles made of sand and people where not meant to build cities and structure on the edge of the ocean, it’s a no brainer from the standpoint of geological and climatology time frames, we are just fools to think otherwise we can’t and shouldn’t try to force changes in the global system to suit profiteering greed to use the environment and manipulate it for monetary gain but should in fact do the opposite and live in synergy with Nature and think about long range effects and consequences. It’s only been 150 years since the major thrust of the industrial revolution led mankind to alter the landscape and coastal areas in such enormous ways and that to me is like a fart in the wind in relation to what the Planetary System will do to our foolish schemes of development! All this is dumb and dumber! Perhaps not in our lifetimes but one or two more into the future the coastal regions will not be what they are now and extending that into the hundreds of years into the future some cities won’t exist. Sensible planning on all fronts is what is needed and not this make a buck and only worry about today and to hell with tomorrow attitude of humans!
But my friend the human race is full of them, those that are only concerned with getting what they can while they can; and they have created a house of cards because greed was the driving force behind almost all human planning or lack thereof over the last hundred or so years, with those that were holding the reins of our societies and progress to suit one goal, to get more power and money! Our political system thrives on that mind-set, look at any previous administration and what do we see? People like the corrupt to the core Hillary who was jetting around the planet as SOS not to bring positive measures in global stability and sensibility, but only setting up PAY TO PLAY Schemes to Enrich her and all the cronies that sign up! This is a system built on falsehood and lies! If that basic underlying formula doesn’t change and soon, then we will see way more havoc in the future! The rich shouldn’t be thinking about how to get F-N richer they should be thinking about putting all they have on the line to make sure things go well for all far into the FUTURE, not live for today bullshit with lack of accountability or responsibility!
Time for the human race to wake the hell up or guess what, nature and God will slap the whole damn species down into the dirt over time and time is growing much shorter or running out along the way as mankind shows how stupid it can be for selfish desire of power and greed! The basic premise of thought is all wrong and that MUST STOP! Rich jerks like Richard Branson racing to develop quarter million dollar rides to the edge of space for the wealthy to experience that! People are the stupidest and most F-N foolish of all creatures! What an asinine idea; and that is one of the filthy rich on this planet and shows what priorities they have and carry forward! What a bunch of imbeciles! And I must add in his case and all like him, ASSHOLES!
I take this opportunity to speak my mind about critical issues that will have dire consequences for all LIFE on EARTH if not dealt with much differently than has been the case and still continues unabated in the reckless stupid fashion that has dominated human endeavor and so called progress! It’s mostly BULLSHIT!
What follows is my resistance to someone who just prior to and then on Christmas Day was tearing at Jesus on the internet. This evil must be shown for what it is!
Victoria, for a couple of days leading up to Christmas and right on Christmas this phony and deceptive guy who was commenting on a post about the two Scandinavian young ladies that were beheaded kept twisting truth like the Devil, to make Jesus nothing more than some guy like Muhammad. His denouncing Jesus and Christianity therefore on Christmas set me off onto my mission, as he would not stop it no matter how many important things I tried to explain to him. He was a clever deceiver. He did however stop after this piece I wrote to him on the post!
Tony, Your own words; “live the way you want and not dictate as you are just a human and not a messenger of GOD, like Jesus and Muhammad were.” Muslim hoax” I am wondering how you equate a “hoax” with facts of an Islamic Empire.”
Wonder NO MORE, Pay attention and learn of your blaspheming error! You have a huge inaccuracy that needs to be corrected! Saying that Jesus is another prophet like Muhammad is blasphemous. First Jesus was not a mere prophet but was God Himself and therefore the Redeemer and Savior of Mankind as he said. Muhammad was only a supposed prophet and there is irrefutable evidence in the historical text of the time he lived that points to his being an outright liar and heretic as well as a criminal and child molester along with his being a polygamist! The following statements are highly accurate and actually proven.
“In 632, only months before he died, Muhammad apparently met for the first time with a Christian community as such. An official delegation of Christians, probably led by a bishop, came to Mecca from Najran in Yemen. After engaging the Christians in discussion, the Prophet is said to have realized that Christian teachings are indeed incompatible with Islam, after which the revelation followed that only Islam is acceptable to God as a religion. The Quran also says very specifically that those who refer to Jesus as God are blasphemers, and that Christians saying that Christ is the son of God is an imitation of Jews, who earlier had said that Ezra is the son of God. According to the Quran Jesus was only a servant; Jesus the son of Mary was no more than an apostle of God. Quranic verses dealing with Jesus’ death have been interpreted differently by commentators, but generally they have been taken to mean that Jesus did not die by crucifixion. For Christians the Quran has thus served as a denial of Jesus’ incarnation and death on the cross and of the reality of the Trinity.” (Oxford University Press)
These two points alone put Islam and the Muslims completely at odds with Jesus Christ and all Christians and are the enemies of such! Muhammad himself began this conflict and was the spoiler and Heretic directly attacking God’s plan as foretold by all the previous prophets going all the way back to Abraham. Things have been in conflict because of Muhammad ever since and are getting worse, this will not resolve until Islam is Chastised or Obliterated as a “fake religion” but most importantly it is anti-Christ, started by a false prophet and therefore heretic!
In Summary Muslims are in complete denial of what Jesus Christ said and who He was which makes them Anti-Christ and supportive of the Devil, and all that is unholy. Basically Muhammad started this Blasphemy back in 632 AD and outright declared War on Christendom! Islam you yourself stated is an EMPIRE which puts it in the category of being a Nation not a Religion! It is not a religion that is backed up with solid historical evidence and prophecy over time by “many prophets” other than what Muhammad said, he made it all up, the heretic! Islam seeks to conquer and must be stopped! And it will be! God’s avenging angels are going to obliterate Islam and any of its followers, they are minions of Satan!
After this experience on Christmas day which I never in my entire life had any such blatant Anti-Christ in my face attack or activity, and of all things on Christmas day, this tells me that we are in the end times as Satan is working through all means available at a fever pitch to Attack Christianity and it’s faithful because the time is drawing near for God to return! Of course I could be off by many years but this is my hunch as there are so many signs and I was attacked by evil several years ago to stop me from being the witness and faithful one that I am for Jesus. A woman of a Christian order told me back then that there was a reason I was suffering for Jesus and it would become apparent at some point in the future why I was being prepared! Now I see in retrospect that God did want me to do something for Him and it could be just to be as I am doing or maybe something more; like a priest told me recently, wait and see!
I also believe much of this evil we see happening around the world has been on the increase or gets much more visibility because the Evil One is working at a fever pitch to ruin mankind and destroy it! Satan is real and the second coming is close at hand! The Lord said “be prepared and not be caught unawares!” “He will come like a thief in the night!” Those that do evil like this person ridiculing Jesus and Christianity will be judged, and those that follow Jesus in “paths of righteousness” will be given Salvation!
Keep praying and beware of “Deception and Deceivers.”
I was commenting to others about a wicked practice by humans and I felt this message boiling in my heart! (Chinese who Butcher alive thousands of dogs then eat them at the annual Yulin dog festival)
You know the old saying, “the world is going to hell in a hand basket,” well I have a new one, “on the slippery slope to Satan’s waiting arms!” Humans have become SHEEPLE playing selfie’s all the time and watching videos that change every 10 seconds or less to not bore them or to align with their attention requirements! A new generation of “mindless gobbledygook people” that are an open invitation for the Anti-Christ and any totalitarian agenda that comes before his arrival on the scene! Humans in general now have an attention span less than that of Gold Fish!!! 8 seconds for peeps and 9 for the fish!!! All you folks out there if you haven’t already realized how seriously in trouble we are as a race of beings you had better think twice, three and many more times about it before it’s too late! This is why I don’t own a smart phone; that is a device that say’s, “look at me I’m not smart I’m a machine, a robot and a stooge!” Go on call me names and hate my guts but I won’t own one of those if you bought it for me! Warren Buffet gave up his Brick just a couple of years ago; I think that was a mistake, for a guy who supposedly didn’t make many in his life! He should have thought about the old saying, “if it’s not broke don’t try fixing it!” I believe in using the internet when I’m at a “work station” ya know like “WORKING” only, and then I leave it till next time and go live as a human being! WAKE UP!
From a conversation about faith and religion.
Tony, I give you an acknowledgement because you speak of some truth, but then fall drastically short when you speak of “The only main faith is one HUMANITY, others are political names chosen by the followers of their relevant Prophet messengers.” That is a falsehood and is Anti-Christ! Jesus Christ Himself clearly stated that to follow anything or anyone other than Him the true living and everlasting God is not the path to everlasting life, he alone is God and He came as a man to provide the redemption and only path to Heaven. Either people eventually see and accept that or they are lost and nothing else will save them; Jesus Christ died on the cross that they would live! It comes down to “FREE WILL” God is perfect and He wants us to be perfect with Him as a family but if he “waved a wand” or we were “programmed” to behave perfect then we would be robots and not individual perfect beings that LOVE HIM because we Choose To; love must be a two way street where each loves the other by choice or it is not LOVE! If we accept Jesus as our Savior, when our souls go to heaven we will receive our glorified body and become perfect.
Also it was the Apostles who actually walked on this earth with Jesus, who collectively wrote God’s inspired word in the books of the Bible, to any Christian of Faith there is no denying that these words are directly from God Himself! God does require true believers in Him Jesus Christ the Savior to have discernment and not just accept cruelty and hatred because of some false ideology. Old Testament principles were not to be put above the New Testament in which Jesus Christ clearly states that He alone is the Way the Path and the Life! If you think discernment is disrespect, then so be it that is your problem not a faithful Christians!
I think our discussing anything else is a waste of time and your composite of what humanity needs is Heresy so you best take care not to fall into that trap which leads directly to Hell just as Mohammad and others have done! Accept Jesus Christ as your Savior or you are on a futile mission leading to only one place and it won’t be with God. You are talking blasphemy and concocting a man-made composite religion which has and is being talked about by many so called New Age, the blending of cultures and practices which is doomed to failure! None are the SAVIOR.
✝The Lord God Jesus Christ Thy Savior and Redeemer, to Him Alone Every Knee Shall Bend ✝
MERRY CHRISTMAS! Amen and we should shout it from the highest mountain tops with great JOY! 🙏
Post Script: Later some additional insight and truth is added here.
Let’s be simple and truthful! The human race is doomed to failure and totally corrupted with SIN. That means we as mere humans are imperfect and incapable of perfection. Therefore, we could never be in the presence of perfection namely God the Creator of all that there is! In order for we humans to bridge that impossible gap between imperfection and perfection required God Himself to make His real presence in the world known to Mankind and established the “Ten Commandments” having Moses deliver them to the Chosen People! Obviously someone had to be chosen this is an imperfect world so this is the way it is done! Then this was headed for the eventual final “Everlasting Covenant” with mankind when God through an immaculate conception was born a human so that in being a real human He could be the one human without SIN and then take all of our sins away, so then if we accept Him as our Savior then we can be given the Gift of Eternal Perfect Existence! He alone is the redeemer; you can’t show any other means of gaining perfection and being in the presence of Eternal HOLY Absolute Perfection! No way no how! You go in circles trying to avoid this TRUTH! By Free Will we chose as individuals where we will go Heaven or Hell. Perfect plan!
✝The Lord God Jesus Christ Thy Savior and Redeemer, to Him Alone Every Knee Shall Bend✝
MERRY CHRISTMAS! Amen and though it was almost against the law to wish it in public for 8 previous years we know that was a sin and we should shout it from the highest mountain tops with great JOY! Amen
But this was the key thought inspired by a man’s impression of my gentle mercy. You said my compassion gives you hope for mankind but stands in sharp contrast to the reality before us, but I say the only real HOPE for mankind is Salvation! And who offers such salvation that can be real and possible? Jesus Christ and no one else has or will ever be able to offer what He did on that cross and when he rose from the dead he fulfilled his promise of an everlasting covenant with Mankind that to have faith in Him will bring eternal life!
Your Faith is real so therefore so is your Hope, that you will receive the Real Gift of Eternal Life! When we give pause and actually think of our lifetimes here even if 100 years, when compared to the timeline of the universe it’s not even a tick of the clock, or barely can say “here today and gone tomorrow” with any significant meaning on its face! So what does that mean, to me it says very clearly that we had better not be trying to store up our treasures here on earth or grabbing whatever we can to show we have it, because anyone doing that is going to lose big time, no two ways about it! What comes beyond this life is all that matters and that is where we should be focusing our energies; to be sure we understand what we do here will directly affect what will happen when this moment in time is over for each of us! Will we choose to have Faith in Him or trust what we can grab in the here and now? That world beyond is what we should seek through Him! Seeking that Life beyond with passion and ever growing faith and commitment to it, because the promise that was made by Him alone is REAL and will be kept; but all else fails and will give you nothing in the end! God Bless! 🙏
Hi Doc, thanks for coming to help. Dear Sir and Friend to all Animals and me, I concur with everything you said word for word and it all adds up to solid undeniable TRUTH! I won’t repeat what I just wrote to Victoria’s or Sandra’s comments but between what both You and they had to say I know now this is not going to escape Justice and “full consequence” to the guilty; whosoever it may be will be caught and given a lifetime of punishment because God will demand it, never mind just what our man-made law says!
This poor little baby sentient being, I cry again sitting here writing about this matter “for Brownie’s sake” who was a curious little boy that went exploring the dangerous and even evil world, but he living a sheltered innocent life had not even a clue about how hideous some humans can be or what danger was lurking outside of his abode with his family! Then this evil demon of a human which Brownie I can picture may have even childishly trusted, went toward the danger calling out to him thinking, who is this someone to meet and play with; then evil was unleashed upon him causing so much pain and fright; as he kept hearing these loud popping sounds and each one caused more pain each time in a different location throughout his body, all the while hearing a human laughing which he knew what that was, from all the happy times at home when he would be up to some little antic playing and his family would laugh so happily, but this laughter now sounded bad not like his families laughter which really tormented him because now he knew what it was to miss them like he never had before! Then his legs beneath him gave way as all grew dark and cold; yet he still had horrific pain going through his entire body and all the sounds around him of nature and man’s technology got faint, then silence! He was now alone in a place of such pain and loss that it frightened him to no end, it was so much worse than the physical pain this feeling of complete loss, and he in his heart and soul called out to his family but nothing changed and it just kept going on this way! I want to die thinking about this, as I now sense myself in his place and want to make it stop, all of the pain and all of the loss, so that all is well and he is so very happy again with his joyous family showering love upon him and he to them, like he just woke from a crazy hellish dream, but, that it was just a dream!
But, we know different you and I that his precious beautiful innocent life was robbed from him and he is faced with such tragic sadness that only a miracle will change it now! I pray for Brownie now and I ask God to please help! I even beg you Lord, I say I’m so sorry for any sins I ever made or committed, with my heart full of sorrow for Brownie as I now cry my heart out only wanting Brownie to be fine again! I ask this in Your Holy Name Lord Jesus Christ! Amen
This Holy Scripture came to mind after reading your comments.
As far as the culprit that did this I think it’s equivalent to what Luke 17 says about a similar situation regarding harming the Innocent, “whosoever causes a little one to stumble would be better off thrown into the ocean with a heavy millstone tied around their neck.” Amen
If you can listen I have a bit of explaining to do and I want to start right off by apologizing for my own lack of fortitude emotionally to see me through a period of several difficult days that reached a fever pitch over the last few! I’ve been going through something indeed for years now without any final abatement! It seems like I got over one major obstacle tossed in my path and momentarily feeling like the burden was gone to find that only another was taking its place! This unrelenting turmoil has taken a drastic toll on my health and appearance causing me much disappointment but I still each day get up with the “can do” objectivity in mind that I can handle anything if the Lord gives me enough inner strength which He always has, but the failure comes with my own flesh being weak not able to match my spirit! Then when a person or two toss curves at me I get sad and then angry! I figured I had enough bullshit from people doing harm to me and not the other way around to last me the rest of my life; but who can really know my place or what it’s like being me, as they aren’t in my shoes so there isn’t a true appreciation of who and what I am. That works both ways and so I see that I have no one to blame but myself for any mishaps and I own up and seek to find peace and resolution, to work at being better at handling whatever burden I have or will have in the future, I really have no choice, it’s do or die and that is how I see it!
You’ve been extremely silent and I’m hoping it’s because you are just way too busy and doing well; just not having a moments time for anyone else’s drama! I thought of something as I was walking my dog thinking about all of this and I realized why I like the movie “John Wick,” not just because I really like Keanu Reeves and the way the film was put together but mainly because I identity with his sadness and anger in the story plot having been so wronged and then he sets out to take care of business sort of like a human angel or agent of God’s to exact justice and rid the world of some dirt! But of course that is fantasy and just a good entertaining movie. I was wronged in most respects far worse than John Wick and my health and even tissues were altered by very wicked minded nefarious persons working for evil! I’ve been antagonized by evil because evil does seek to destroy and trip any of us up to over react and cause more difficulty, which I have never done nor will I! I only get hurt and sad then angry and even cry, realizing I must take it and keep going sort of the way Jake LaMotta the famed fighter of “Raging Bull” played by DiNero! What did he tell Sugar Ray Robinson when he was beat and badly bruised not only physically but emotionally after having the fight called against him, “you never got me down Ray!” That is quite the metaphor for all of us to consider when life is brutal or when our enemies get the upper hand and knock us on our ass!
I messed up this week and I have a lot I’ve been carrying that pains me deeply and it’s not going away anytime soon and at times looks like it will only get worse! Then I see how this world is spinning madly out of control Geo-politically and how domestically we have so many screwed up people that are running this country into the ground and morals and values are in the toilet! Then of course being a man of faith I see that Scriptures indicate “end time” being much like this and that adds the final whammy which puts me over the top emotionally. After all I’ve been dealing with I’ve grown weary of practically all people even many relatives who aren’t any better than strangers, in some ways worse!
So I get feeling isolated and really sad but that is a “key,” I see myself feeling sorry for myself a little too much perhaps, and that is wrong I don’t want that I would rather feel sorry for sick little children and old ladies and grand dads that are Veterans who served and suffered so badly for all of we Americans! I’m changing Sir, and I hope completely for the better so that even if I won’t ever be who and what I just was a short number of years OK, it will be only in appearance because inside I will be so much better and more of what God wants me to be for His purpose and plan! Excuse me I just started crying.
I’m getting close today to forgiving myself for screwing up but most important to me is that you can be the strong man I see and believe you to be; being able to find it within yourself to forgive me. That will mean a lot to me and maybe make the world of difference in my getting clear of my own demons!
Thank you for your time and expertise along with the insurmountable friendship and fellowship you provided to me all along!
God Bless You and Yours!